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Not that this should come as a surprise but Kate Moss looks fucking radical in this editorial - it's scary. She is beautiful, and the first picture's ripped tights and fur ensamble is perfection. I want her ferocity.

"Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels."
- Kate, your one of a kind

smile, you're in Neverland

No classes and what do I do with my time? Study? Are you insane?! No studying for me when there are crazy random paks to disturb, Waverly Hotels to assault and all of Kensington Market to explore. Today was somewhat of an adventure day - thanks to the sun, many lifetimes spent in subway cars and the fact that my bra was (questionably) showing the entire day on purpose. Ironic how we (my friend Julia and I) chose a park infested with crawling children and dogs to roll joints in for future adventures. That's the beauty of youth...we can get away with so much. Dandilions are fun too.

Anyway, while doing a brief Kensington run (I usually spend hours looking through all the vintage treasures...and although I am known to exaggerate, I am not exaggerating when I say hours) I picked up some cheap John Lennon sun glasses - because I've been looking for a basic pair, and a lingerie top that I am going to pull another youth-stunt with by wearing it as outerwear - even though it clearly belongs under exteriors.

I'm waiting for something that will never come, but at least I can get creative with all the time spent waiting.

she's walking through the clouds

Photography by Kelly Carpenter

I want this tattoo, it's so beautiful. Just the word dream-catcher in itself makes me drift off to dazed fantasies.



Well she's walking through the clouds
With a circus mind that's running round
Butterflies and zebras
And moonbeams and fairy tales
That's all she ever thinks about
Riding with the wind

- Jimi Hendrix, Little Wing
these lyrics describe me on a hazy day perfectly - world/picture association could not be better...

warhol star

Dreams are places where only some dare to explore. Risks are abundant and heartbreak is notoriously prevalent. Kids walk down cracked streets, subconciously letting the artificial street lights guide them along a rugged path. The dark patches are dismal and we get lost often. Take a photograph of something beautiful and let it be your inspiration. No need to edit away the flaws when we have adventure like this. And if one day the dream gets pushed aside with all of the other lost causes, we will have had the pictures to prove we once were alive.

This is an edited picture that my friend took of me last summer (unedited version was already posted). I have a little too much fun with Rollip and other photo-editing software. It reminds me of an Andy Warhol print - must be the blurry, undefined lines and shadows. Hopefully getting a polaroid camera this weekend. I'd rather move backwards in terms of technology because it seems that all the cool products lived in the past.

to tattoo, or not to tattoo?

With my sixteenth birthday approaching (and my champagne birthday...does no one consider these anymore??) and my recklessness clearly expanding, I think I want to get a tattoo. Nothing tacky, nothing stupid or meaningless; just something that will push me a little further along every time I look at it. There are two definite tattoos I want to get in my lifetime: a vinyl record (small, symbolic of music which is the love of my life and unique) and a quote on my arm. I have a few little lists floating around in half-finished documents on my disorganized laptop of possible quotes, and some pictures I like of other people's permanent messages. So far I really like "We are riding the crest of a high and beautiful wave", which is from one of the most wild and influencial novels ever (for me) Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas - this quote is simply amazing. In the novel it actually reads "We were riding the crest blah blah blah", but I thought it would be more appropriate with my apparent youth and all to make it in the present tense. Another great one: "A Dustland Fairytale". Short, sweet, dreamy and will always remind me of being young and free and able to dream big. The song A Dustland Fairytale has also impacted my life in huge ways so it seems somewhat fitting. Last idea for a quote tattoo is an Edie Sedgwick quote that just kills me it is so brilliant: "Turn the whole world on".I guess the real reason that I want something permanent is because I want to be able to carry things that have changed my life around with me...it's comforting and to me, a really distinct form of self expression.

Only problem is my legal guardians are irrevocably anti-tattoo. That messes things up a little but it wouldn't be the first time I completely ignored any parental advice. Why is breaking rules so much more fun than following them?

Ps - the pictures are of tattoos I like...and people I like

who was she, and we didn't even know

Last year, carefree summer, screwing around with clothes and cameras and brick walls. I am no longer this girly (or this girl, for that matter), but I like to bring her back every once and a while. The photos are so posed but I don't even care, this was a fun day.

Soon I will have a new outfit post, something more me. Something maybe a little more raw and candid, because I have discovered that those types of pictures capture so much reality that they can provoke flashbacks..to the past..

things are never certain...

From studdedhearts

I love the serenity of this photograph. Doesn't at all mirror how I am feeling about life in general at the moment, but I am hoping I will reach a similar level of peace soon. I just found out I will be spending three weeks in New York City this summer...then head to LA for maybe two weeks. Still working the crazy bits out but this could really turn out to be a dream. A dream summer, I mean. So many things are still up in the air, unsettled, unplanned...leaving a gaping abyss in which things can go wrong.

This week I have no classes or school (thank god, I was starting to wish I could burn that goddamn place to the ground), so I am going to try and work on getting things set in stone. I am going to LA for minimum 2 weeks, regardless of what others say, think, believe. I have permission from my legal guardians and that is all that matters. Hopefully my friend will be able to accompany me...and we can have two incredible weeks where I can make things happen, dance and spend every endless night on the sunset strip loving life. And the more I get to thinking about my three weeks in nyc, the more ideas I get...I've never been good with reality...